Don't Quit

One of my first experiences of being ashamed of myself was in a footrace. For the wrong reasons I chose to go to Cal State University Fullerton instead of going to the University of Oregon. I shoulda left home (side note) Eugene Oliver Crawford MY DAD used to say if you put coulda woulda and shoulda in one hand and crap in the other which one will get filled first (end of side note) My roomate was a sprinter in high school, and challenged me to a race we would race for a mile. My mile times at the end of high school were in the mid-4 low 5 minute area. depending on which way the wind was blowing.. We took off he was off like a shot he had be by a half a lap by the time I got one lap down. By the way we got to 880 yards (yes it was a long time ago) he was laboring I started closing the gap by the way we got to the last 220 yards we were even. As we rounded the last turn he started his kick. I just knew I could not keep up with him and I shut it down. When we got to the end he told me "Manny I had nothing left I was done if you would  have kept on and sprinted with me I would not have had the gas to finish dude you had me dead to rights" I felt so ashamed and upset. I didnt believe in myself. I didnt have the guts to finish what I started. Now at this phase in my life I look at some of these things and think.  What if I would have fought for it?

The Merovingian logic

Just in case you didnt know the Merovigian was a character in the movie "Matrix Reloaded" that held the KeyMaker hostage

The merovingian logic can be summed up in one phrase "how can you have time if you don't take time"... We go through our lives wishing for something, anything that may make us feel important, needed, wanted, or stuff like that. I have a interesting proposal. TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF.  I remember my 1st job in IT. I was introduced to a room full of processor upgrades. It was literally Full like two offices had the wall between them removed and one room was full from the floor to the ceiling with upgraded processors that I had to replace, along with my other duties. Being ex military I was going to work overtime to get this done, but my boss told me a better way.  He said  "Manny you can work overtime for the next 3 months and you will not put a sizable dent in this pile of work, and if you become a burn out I will fire you… so I took my lunches and unless I had someone at my door at closing time with a problem that "had to be fixed before tomorrow" which was rare I was long gone at 5… What is my point Life is too short to be wrapped around the axle with jobs that won't be completed that day anyway.   I remember the song "Cats in the Cradle" and the pertinent line is "we will get together then son, we are going to have a good time then". The then never came, and I shout to the rafters this one thing, TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF and your needs. The job will be there when you get back no one will think any less of you (unless you take this to the extreme and become a slacker) the job does not define you… The job is not you. The job is how you eat regularly put your kids through school, buy cool stuff and live indoors.  The sooner we realize that the better we will feel. I think some among us that do not have an identity outside of the job. Some among us that think the job is where we are thought of as good and do not see the internal good within us… to those that think that I have a simple thought Get a life.  You are a unique beautiful person and nothing you do (short of dog fighting) will make anyone think any more or less of you… so Take the time.
Go get a massage, take a friend to dinner, see a movie, anything that does it for you. You will thank me afterward after all "how can you have time if you don't take time