Tuesday, December 2, 2025

 My Friend Mike: Standing Up for the Airman Who Aimed Higher

I just got home, misty‑eyed, after watching the film *The Last Full Measure*. It tells the story of a thirty‑year fight to secure the Medal of Honor for a man’s actions in Vietnam.

All the way home, I kept thinking about my friend Mike.

Mike and I first crossed paths in Power Production. He worked for me as a generator mechanic and electrician. On paper, I was his supervisor. In reality, I was his mentor, his advocate, and one more senior NCO trying to make sure the right people got the right chances.

He made that part easy.

The Airman in the Generator Yard

Mike was the kind of airman you hope for and rarely get. Smart. Hungry. Always squared away—my nod to my Marine friends. He was the definition of a “Firewall 5” on his performance reports, the highest rating you could give in every area: job performance, attitude, appearance, and bearing.

He did things the right way every time, without needing someone to stand over his shoulder. That doesn’t mean he had an easy road. Nobody does. He was dealing with some family issues that caught the attention of the chain of command—nothing he did, but close enough to brush against his career.

The problem was simple to explain and ugly to look at. From the outside, it didn’t present well. From the inside, I knew the truth: Mike was doing everything in his power to distance himself and handle it by the book.

But sometimes, perception tries to outrun reality.

“Change His Evaluation”

One day I got the call no supervisor likes. I was ordered to report to the commander’s office with my first sergeant.

The issue on the table: Mike’s performance report and his request to cross‑train into the Pararescue career field. His family situation had drawn command interest, and now people were looking for paperwork that “reflected how it looked.”

In plain language: I was being asked to shade his evaluation.

Sitting there in that office, I listened to the concern. I understood the pressure. I was also less than six months from retirement, which meant my tolerance for politics was at an all‑time low. They wanted me to modify his performance report to match the optics of the situation, not the reality of the man.

I respectfully declined.

I told them what I knew: Mike’s conduct on duty was spotless. His performance was outstanding. He had done everything required of him—and then some—to handle the family matter correctly. To punish him on paper for something he did not do, when he had followed the rules, would not be honest. And if the evaluation isn’t honest, it’s useless.

The request to deny his cross‑train into Pararescue came next.

Once again, I refused to throw him under the bus. If he had earned that opportunity—and he had—I was going to recommend him for it. Period.

A Sea of Generators and Bigger Dreams

Back in the Power Production yard, we had rows of 750‑kilowatt generators—desert tan beasts chugging out electricity and clouds of exhaust. Every month we ran “hot tests” on them under load. At one point, we were having a recurring problem with resistors blowing at random. We worked through it together, gathering running data for the manufacturer so they could redesign the equipment and fix the issue.

Over the roar of those engines, we also talked about his future.

He told me he wanted more than to be a generator mechanic. He wanted to do more, go farther, test himself harder. He wanted to be a PJ—one of the Air Force’s Pararescuemen.

I told him if that’s what he wanted, I would back him to the hilt. Not because it sounded impressive, but because I believed he had the character and the work ethic to carry that kind of responsibility.

A few months later, I retired and moved on to a new career in IT. Mike stayed in the fight.

Staying in Touch with a Quiet Professional

Years later, I found him on the global email listing and sent him a note now and then.

Because he was in the Special Operations community, I never expected details. I just wanted him to know I still had eyes on him in the only way I could.

My messages usually ended something like this:

> “Mike, I don’t know where you are or what’s going on with you. Just know I’m thinking about you and want you to be safe, wherever that is. You have a dinner coming from me whenever you’re ready.”

To this day, I mean that.

Why I Keep Thinking About Him

Watching *The Last Full Measure* brought a lot of things to the surface: sacrifice, loyalty, and the long fight to see someone properly recognized for who they really are.

I’ll never claim credit for Mike’s accomplishments. He did the hard work. He walked the miles. He carried the rucksack. But I am grateful I was in a position, at one crucial moment, to tell the truth about him when it counted.

Leadership isn’t just about writing reports and enforcing standards. Sometimes it’s about standing in a quiet office, looking a commander in the eye, and refusing to rewrite someone’s story to make the optics look better.

My friend Mike wanted to aim higher. All I did was keep the paper from weighing him down.

If you’ve ever had a “Mike” in your career—a junior person who deserved better than the rumor mill and the easy political answer—do them a favor: tell the truth about them. Back them when it costs you nothing, and especially when it might cost you something.

You never know where they’ll go, or who they’ll save, because you chose not to look away when it was easier to stay quiet.

Friday, February 14, 2025

Dalysis Memoir

 I moved to Columbus right after retiring from 39 years of government service, eager for a new chapter. My greatest joy was walking my grandson to elementary school—a simple, fulfilling routine. The first year went as planned. Three times a week, I walked a mile, breathing in the crisp morning air, feeling strong. Then, something changed. A sluggishness crept in. I brushed it off as aging. But that fatigue didn't go away as time passed—it settled in, deep and unshakable.

I never connected how I felt to what my kidney specialist had warned me about before I moved: my kidneys were deteriorating. Back then, I felt fine. The warning felt distant, almost theoretical. Even when subtle signs appeared—water retention in my legs, hips, and abdomen—I dismissed them. Then, the morning after an anniversary dinner with my wife, I woke up in a hospital bed. It was the beginning of an 18-month ordeal that would redefine my life. My kidneys had reached their breaking point. I underwent emergency dialysis.

Emergency dialysis is a harrowing experience. There was no established access to the machine that now had to replace my kidneys. The only option was to insert a catheter directly through my neck, into my subclavian artery—or possibly even my aortic arch. The sensation of a tube so close to my heart was surreal. To say I was scared would be an understatement. But fear doesn't change reality. The only way to solve a problem is to go straight through it. So, I gritted my teeth and moved forward.

Looking back, I understand why my kidney specialist moved so fast to get me on dialysis. After just a few sessions, they inserted an intermediate access point—a catheter into my aorta. It was a temporary fix until they could create a fistula in my left bicep, a direct connection between a vein and an artery. That fistula would be my lifeline, but it needed time to mature. Until then, the catheter was my only access point for dialysis—three days a week, four hours per session. The reality of my new life settled in quickly.

At no point did I feel sorry for myself. Self-pity was never an option. My mission is clear: to mentor my grandchildren until they reach adulthood. That is the sole meaning of my existence, my life's work. The reasons behind it could fill another story, but I know this much—it's a calling from God. And when you're given a mission like that, you don't waver. You endure.

With a military and civil service background, I see dialysis as another mission—one with strict orders. Those who assist me, my doctors and nurses, aren't just medical professionals. They're my partners. They're not punishing me; they're keeping me alive. Their instructions—what I should eat and avoid—aren't suggestions. They're direct orders from higher headquarters. I follow them because the mission demands it.

But let's be honest—sometimes, the rules suck. Hard. But that's the job. Get over it and move forward.

I don't understand how some people treat these instructions as optional as if their choices won't have consequences. I've lost friends that way—people who sat right next to me in treatment, ignoring the rules, doing what they pleased between sessions, thinking they could cheat the system. But the body doesn't negotiate. The system always wins.

Would I love a beer? Absolutely. But that's verboten—off-limits. The potassium content alone could push my levels to fatal territory. It's not about willpower. It's about survival. And survival means following the damn rules, no matter how much they suck.

That's not to say I'm perfect—because I'm not. Dialysis doesn't allow for illusions. With weekly bloodwork, there are no hiding places. Every decision, every misstep, is exposed immediately.

I learned the hard way when my grandson had a birthday dinner at a Chinese buffet. I knew better, but it was easy to justify it at the moment—just this once. But the numbers don't lie. The next time my labs returned, my misstep was in black and white—undeniable.

But here's the difference—I own my mistakes. No excuses. And more importantly, I don't make the same mistake twice. Because in this battle, repetition isn't just failure—it's self-sabotage.

I'm on two transplant lists—one at Ohio State and another at the Pittsburgh VA Transplant Center. I've been waiting for two years, with credit for my first year on dialysis. My family has been fully supportive. My daughter and I have planned for every scenario. If I become incapacitated, my wishes are clear.

But dialysis takes its toll. The fatigue is relentless. Depending on how much fluid is removed, it can last four or 36 hours after treatment. The impact isn't random—it's measured in kilos. If they remove less than two kilos, I'll bounce back fast. More than that? The exhaustion is like a truck hitting me head-on. It's directly proportional—the more they take, the worse I feel.

Still, my biggest regret isn't the fatigue. It's missing church services. The guilt weighs on me. I should be there. I want to be there. And when I make it, I'm running on sheer willpower, pushing through the exhaustion, trying to keep a brave face for my congregation. But the truth is, I'm at war with my body whenever I walk through those doors. Faith is my foundation, but I still struggle with the feeling that I should be doing more—even when I know I'm already giving everything I have.

Dialysis isn't just a treatment. It's a way of life—a complex, grinding, relentless way of life. But I made a promise. And as long as I have breath, I will complete my mission.  

Wednesday, August 30, 2023

Pain is Joy

                                                                          Pain is Joy

 

40 or so years ago, I was flat on my back after being thrown during a sparring session with my sensi and older Filipino gentleman around 45-50 years old. I hit the mat hard. Getting up groaning, he smiled and said Mr. Manny, Pain is joy. I did not get it right away, but he explained the concept. If you feel the pain, you are still alive to feel it, and if you can move, you will be okay, so deal with the pain and get up. My arrogance, fueled by my around 25 or 26 years old with some karate training, did not respect my teachers' skills as I should have. I was not careful. I approached the situation with a sledgehammer. He was using just the slightest redirection of my momentum to get me off my feet and on my back in a blur of motion. I learned my lesson that day. The subject today is pain.

            Pain is a teacher; it gives warning, establishes boundaries, and reinforces actions used to modify one's behavior. This is true of physical and or emotional pain. How often has the thought occurred, "Let's not do that again; that did not feel good?" Today, I got a painful warning while sitting in the dialysis chair. At the three-hour mark, I noticed, without warning, my ankles turning inward and cramping painfully. After seeing me struggle, the technician reduced the rate at which excess water was removed from my system. That pain was impressive. I have never seen an ankle turn so dramatically all by itself. Without that pain, I would not know the level of dehydration that I was suffering mechanically.

            That was physical pain. There is emotional pain. Having lived differently in different times, I found some of my good or bad decisions led to pain. I have felt loss, be it due to the passing of a friend or the consequences of bad choices and decisions I have made. I'm glad to say I'm not making that mistake anymore; however, sometimes I misstep and confuse things. What pain does is slow one down. It slows the response emotionally, meaning less apt to react with emotion when presented with something that does not seem right. Something that offends and those that would look to provoke just because it is a day that ends in the letter Y. I took a long time to get here in this essay, but here is where my head has been as of late. It might make some in our movement have a "clutch the pearls" moment, but I read, listen, and study many things that cross my curiosity threshold. Hebrews 12:2 For the joy set before me endured the cross disregarding the shame (ESV) and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. In the premise of this essay, I state, "Pain is joy." I have an internal problem with the megachurch concept: we should not be sick, poor, or unhappy. The Buddhists believe that life is suffering. Everything causes suffering, and one cannot do anything about it.

The Stoics believe suffering is part of the lives of those unable to handle emotions. The Shinto religion believes that suffering is not a form of punishment as much as it is a natural element of human existence. Guess what? They are all right in varying degrees. What is missing is the end of it all: Why do we do what we do as Christians? I accept the Stoic version with this difference: I always have someone with me to share the good times and the bad.  Isaiah 53 5, "But he was wounded for our transgressions he bruised for our iniquities. the chastisement for our peace was upon him, and by his stripes, we are healed." We have an advocate who was wrongly accused, beaten, and put to death in one of the most painful ways humans devised. So by knowing that, not on a surface level but deeply in our spirit, we can endure tremendous hardship and pain, knowing that we have a God who has also done it.

Having spent a couple of hours on operating room tables, I approach it not with trepidation but accept it as the price of doing business. I live with the consequences of the "riotous living that I have to pay the fee for in this stage of my life. Do not get me wrong; I expect to be healed eventually, but I'm not waiting for a third party to intervene. I got into this situation and must take the appropriate steps to get to the other side of this challenge. I look to the challenge ahead of me, my wife, grandchildren, and family and get them set up for the time after me to be the most successful version of themselves they can make. To that end, I have chosen to associate with people with a spiritual walk stronger than mine, faith more robust than I have, and a witness I can look up to. I tell my grandsons this all the time. Your friends can lift you to their level. However, associating with people who have made choices that are not the best will also drag one down with them. I tell my grandson that if he hangs with four brilliant people, he will be the fifth; he will always rise to the level of your competition. Knowing this from the beginning will be beneficial to one's growth.  

Thursday, August 10, 2023

Of cabbages and kings

 

     Of Cabbages and Kings

 

"The time has come, Ole Papi said to speak of many things. Of shoes of ships and sealing wax and cabbages and Kings."

Today was the 1st of hopefully many discussions with one of my grandsons about "stuff" in general. It was a wide-ranging conversation about liars and why they lie, whether in the media or our personal lives. We discussed how the wealthy pass their wealth to their children and how to accomplish that task for themselves when it comes. Additionally, we talked about compound interest and how it is both a benefit and a bane of existence. We talked about the purpose of family. Why family exists, and what are the dynamics of a family (from my perspective)

            One of the exciting topics was compound interest, described as money that creates money from money that does not yet exist. I explained I bought the house where we live for a few hundred thousand dollars. However, after 30 years have passed, we will pay significantly more than that, close to double. That is what they call interest, money that does not exist. I explained how people like Elon Musk have ownership of very little. However, he has access to everything. We talked about how a company, for tax purposes, is treated. as if it were a person. The trick is to learn how that takes place and use it for your purposes. (I'm skipping the boring details)

            We talked about lies and liars. I asked him, "Do you remember that submarine incident a week or so ago?" And how they spoke about them having 36 hours or so of oxygen remaining, keeping the situation firmly at the center of our attention to find out that the US NAVY knew almost immediately that the boat had imploded with all hands aboard. I told my Grandson the Navy has vast experience with undersea sounds and knows what a boat sounds like when it's crushed. My question was, "What else was going on that week that was important but possibly needed a distraction? I offered him a thing or two that were going on that did not get the same level of coverage as there were some legal issues in Washington, DC, and some plea deal. I forgot the details. I told him of an individual who took a woman's life with a child using a stolen handgun; that story has three major problems. First, the accused perpetrator was a person of color. Second, the pistol used was stolen, and finally, the person will be charged with double murder or killing the mother and child. There are problems with the story's facts based on the possible contradictions with prevailing thoughts on those issues. I told him I used to say when I hear a story, I immediately think, "I wonder if that is true," but I have to add why they said it if it is false.

            We went on to "What are you going to do in your shop classes at the local trade school" In the future, you will have to choose a job in a trade or go to college with the result being a paying job that will cover the lifestyle he wishes to have. I told him, "Remember that if you borrow money to go to college at some point, that money will have to be paid back. You will have to weigh the benefits of a paid apprenticeship without the use of going to college. That will be his choice that will have to be made at some point, and that will be yours alone to figure out.

            We talked about the concept of military life and lawful orders. This thought was triggered by someone driving a front-end loader down the highway. I said now, that's been a while since I went one. I told him I was a generator mechanic. However, a phrase added to the bottom of my job description was "and all other assigned duties." Now the concept of a lawful order came up. I told him of a story of a Col who wanted lights to be blacked out at some point in some exercise. He gave said order which I relayed to my supervisor, who, while saying we are ready to complete this order as shown, however, this is the area of a contractor's construction area. If we interfere with their project, there will be command interest as to who, why, and who gave the order to do that. We did not have to complete the task we were ordered to accomplish. At some point, you will have to choose between doing what is right, based on your values, and being willing to pay the price to go against the stream.

            We discussed my history regarding my wife and her inherent distrust of all things female about me. Being a knucklehead gave someone a ride to work at some point, and I got a call for assistance at some ungodly hour, and I had to explain the why's and wherefores of that interaction. To be brief, I took what can be called a significant league azz chewing, which left no doubt on her position on the subject, regardless of my guilt or innocence. When my butt regrew, it was attached to a much wiser individual. I understood where she came from based on her history in previous associations and who I was when we first met. Yea, that was a rough one. I told him there should be only one person that one should take that level of criticism, and it is one chosen mate (if done respectfully in both directions). The discussion went to my escapade when I passed out in a parking garage, that had me in the hospital for two days. My wife put me on her shoulders to get me into a wheelchair to the ER. I told him I gave Nana BIG props for standing up when I needed someone to step in and handle business as I did for her a time or two.

     We finally discussed family. I asked what my purpose is in this family, is it for myself and what I need or want, or is it for someone else? He looked and said, me? That is correct. It is you. You and Nana come first; then I come in second or third. My needs go after I ensure you and the rest of the family's needs are met. If I put myself first, then it gets problematic for everyone. I told him family is my primary purpose; it is why I am here doing what I do daily. I can't answer others, as that is not my responsibility.

It was a good talk, and I look forward to doing it again soon. The middle grandson's appt with me is tomorrow. Being

 

Grandson discussion II

                                                  Grandson Discussion Part 11

 

Occasionally, I like to take my grandson aside for a discussion. Today's discussion started with logic and reason during male-female relations. I sent him a video earlier stating that I wanted to give him a practical example of our family.

          We have a granddaughter graduating high school next year. I laid out the costs for the airfare lodging for 6-7 days next year and laid those numbers out for him. Then I asked a question. Do you think the young lady graduating would like a check for $2000 instead of the cross-country trip for a week to see her crossover?   Well, that's the logic vs. emotion part of the equation. Guess who would rather pay the 2K and not travel to graduation, and who would not? I come from a place of logic that says it's okay for the 2k. Now I could insist and push my idea, but you know how that will go. It will fly like a Led Zepplin. I am not in the mood for an extinction-level event. So, we are going to the graduation. (Lord bless and says the same) 

          We then talked about his thoughts on eventually getting a car. And how he has to balance the overall cost of ownership car + insurance. Vs. The vehicle is "looking good," I am pleased he has the concept nailed down (for now). We looked at cars, what they would cost, and the payment when purchased.

The next topic was the subject of knives. I have a spring-assisted knife on my desk that I use to open boxes. It's fun to work the mechanism "just because." He asked me what the laws are for minors carrying knives. Ohio has no knife restrictions, with the following exceptions: schools and Courts. My suggestion is that because one can do, something doesn't mean someone should do something. For example, "It is perfectly legal for me to go to a restaurant or bar and get a beer." However, it is not advisable, seeing I'm in 5th-stage renal failure and waiting for a kidney.

Additionally, you know what would happen if I came home a little tipsy. That would be a no-bueno situation if I were foolish to try it. I took this golden opportunity to quote some Bible."

1 Corinthians 10:23 (ESV) -- "All things are lawful," but not all things are helpful. "All things are lawful," but not all things build up." PAPI has to inject some divine wisdom occasionally to ensure he pays attention.

I will continue to bring up things to him, and my goal is to give him the information on all the subjects I can that I did not know when I was his age.

I'm just doing my grandfatherly duty.



Tuesday, June 20, 2023

Wages Vs Gifts

  

I just returned from an interesting discussion with my youngest grandson over breakfast. I made the young man oatmeal as he asked on my mornings when I do not have to go to my dialysis treatments. It all started with a question. "Papi, what do wages mean?" I told him it is a payment for something one does. "You understand that. No, Papi." Well, if one performs a service, that service is paid by a wage, meaning it is earned. "But what are you referring to?" Death Papi, what are the wages of death? OHHHHH, that's where you are going. So, I started "The wages of sin is death" (and my grandson finished the scripture by memory). After hiding the proud moment, I was having at the time. I then asked, what would that be if someone got something they did not work for and was done out of caring for another? After several perplexing moments where he blurted out what he thought I was thinking about to no avail, I said if I gave you five bucks to go to the store to buy whatever you wanted, what would that be? Several wrong answers later. I kept hammering at the question trying to make him think. OK, let's try this if you did something well, and I wanted to give you something, what would that be? "a reward" Yes, but what else would it be? He then had a look; you know this look (????????) OK, if it is your birthday and you get something you like, what would that be, he answered a present. Tell me the memory verse again, and we will figure it out. So, we said it together. The wages of sin is death, but the Gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ, our lord. Now what is what you get just because? After looking at him with that (I don't get it to look), I said OK, say the scripture and see if you can get it. The wages of sin is death but the Gift. (the what?) the Gift (let's say that again), the Gift of god. OK, so what is it? (Computing noises for a second or two) it's a gift. There you do, son. It's a gift. And now, what is a gift? Do you get a gift for working? Before you answer, I'll tell you work is work and deserves a wage, so it's never a gift because you have to do something. (Trust me on that one). So, what is a gift? Is it something because you deserve it (no Papi)? OK, what then is it? Is it something I get just because I'm here (or words to that effect)? All right then, now we know that wages are for work and you earned it and not deserving of it; we also know that a gift is given just because, but because what exactly? Because you are giving it to me for free because I am here, and……  Because I'm your grandson and you love me. There you go. Good, so if we get wages, it means we worked for it and earned it, but a gift is because of no other reason than the father, and in my case, the grandfather wants to give it to you; it's free and without any other reason that you are a son. Are we good now? Yes. I thanked him because he gave me something to write about today. I want to thank his teachers at church because it caused him to continue to ask questions that will serve him well in and outside of the faith.

Friday, June 9, 2023

Easy password Security

     

                                                         Easy Password Security

  At some time, I'm certain we are all obsessed with the different passwords and codes one uses daily. I'm a retired systems administrator for a military medical clinic, which will stay anonymous. I have various passwords that I must have for the numerous systems for which I was responsible. I have a password system compatible with all military security protocols that are extremely easy to form and store securely. Two capitalized, two lowercase, two numbers, and. two special characters. This secret phrase strategy can appear overwhelming, yet it isn't as convoluted as it looks. I don't mean passwords in the usual sense. What I mean are passphrases. Something easy to recollect yet complex to translate and copy. That combined with an encrypted location (also password protected) to store them if one has upward of 7 to 10 passwords to remember. More on that later.

    Passphrases are the way to an important thought. Here is an example of a passphrase "!TH@Magn@Charta1215" This passphrase has all the components and the intricacy that is ideally suited for the current security conventions. The secret phrase above alludes to a verifiable occasion, location, or historical event. The Magna Carta was a document that was signed in 1215 AD. Notice what it isn't. It isn't your little girl's birthday or her name spelled in reverse. Not an occasion can't be straightforwardly connected with any individual or is accessible in a data set with anybody as a subject of that pursuit. The magnificence of this is that it is extraordinary to the essayist and has vast conceivable outcomes. It isn't attached to reality. The occasions can be fictitious, for example, (for Star Trek fans) [!TH@K0b@ya$h1M@ru], or Something almost identical and less perplexing. !TH@S1xD@yW@r67. (! The six-day war, 67)

     Having numerous passphrases available can be overwhelming; however, There are secure areas in one's work area where they are saved. In Windows, an encrypted password-protected folder can be created on the desktop to store the password list if it cannot be remembered. An application in the Microsoft Office suite makes securing an encrypted file easier. In the OneNote app, there is a provision for a secure file that can contain a list of passwords. Be sure a backup of the data is available in the event that it is forgotten, as it is difficult or impossible to recover if that event. Forgetting one's password and the complications can be tricky, but any security is better than no security.    Remember, numerous applications require passwords, and the number of applications that require complex passwords is expanding rapidly.   As stated previously, I used to work on a military network. We have Common Access Cards that allow entry into the secure network. So many of my colleagues had password lists under their desks that contain the passwords they use daily. This policy of keeping hard copy lists is a bad security posture. It can lead to a disaster if not managed correctly. I spread this message to my colleagues and customers; some have taken that advice to heart.    

Thursday, May 4, 2023

Explain why universal physical truths are being replaced by thoughts based on how a person feels at any particular moment

 . The shift towards subjective truths is also fueled by the increasing importance of identity and personal expression in contemporary culture. Many people feel that universal physical truths do not adequately represent their identities and experiences. Instead, they seek to assert their own personal truths based on their unique perspectives and experiences.

While the emphasis on subjective truths has helped to bring attention to previously marginalized perspectives and experiences, it also has the potential to undermine the importance of objective reality and empirical evidence. This can have significant implications for scientific inquiry, as well as for social and political decision-making.

For example, if subjective feelings are given equal weight to objective evidence, this can lead to decisions based on personal biases rather than objective data. This can be particularly problematic in areas such as healthcare, public policy, and scientific research, where objective evidence is critical for making informed decisions.

In conclusion, while the trend toward subjective truths based on personal feelings and experiences can bring attention to previously marginalized perspectives, it also has the potential to undermine the importance of objective reality and empirical evidence. It is essential to balance the importance of subjective experience with the need for objective evidence and universal physical truths to make informed decisions and advance our understanding of the world around us.


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Thursday, June 23, 2022

Password Security for Seniors I mean (Everyone)

 Password Security for  Seniors I mean (Everyone) 



I am sure all of us, at one time or another, have agonized over the various passwords and codes that one has to remember daily.   I know I do. 1st of all, I am a system administrator for a military hospital, which will remain nameless. I have numerous passwords that I have to have on hand for the multiple systems that I administer.   I have a password system compatible with all military security protocols that are extremely easy to form and store securely.   The military uses a two x4 password policy. Two uppercase, two lowercase, two numbers and. 2 unique characters.   This password policy can seem daunting, but it is not as complicated as it looks. I don't mean passwords in the traditional sense. What I mean are passphrases. Something simple to remember but complex to decipher and duplicate. That combined with an encrypted location (also password protected) to store them if one has upward of 7 to 10 passwords to remember. More on that later. 

Passphrases are the key to something to remember.   let us try one 

[!TH@Magn@Charta1215]  this passphrase has the elements and the complexity that is perfect for the security protocols. 

The password listed above, either within or including the brackets, refers to a historical event, not a word (Yes, Captain Obvious, I can see that ). The Magna Charta was a document that was signed in 1215 AD.    Notice what it is not. It is not your daughter's birthday or her name spelled backward. It is not an event that cannot be directly associated with any individual or is searchable in a database with anyone as a subject of that search. The beauty of this is that it is unique to the writer and has endless possibilities. It is not tied to real life. The events can be fictional such as (for Star Trek fans) [!TH@K0b@ya$h1M@ru], or

something similar and less complex. G1l1ppioli1915. 

Having many passphrases on hand can be daunting,  but there are secure locations on one's desktop where they are stored.  

In windows, an encrypted password-protected folder can be created on the desktop to store the password list if it cannot be remembered. An application in the Microsoft Office suite makes securing an encrypted file easier. In the OneNote app, there is a provision for a secured file that can contain a list of passwords. Be sure a backup of the data is available in case it is forgotten, as it is difficult or impossible to recover if that event. Forgetting one's password and the complications can be tricky, but any security is better than no security.    Remember, numerous applications require passwords, and the number of applications that require complex passwords is expanding rapidly.   As stated previously, I work on a military network. We have Common Access Cards that allow us entry into the secured network.  

So many of my colleagues have password lists under their desks that contain the passwords they use daily. This policy of keeping hard copy lists is a bad security posture. It can lead to a disaster if not managed. I spread this message to my colleagues and customers, and some have taken that advice to heart.    


Tuesday, May 24, 2022

Its Best Not Knowing

                                                             It's Best Not Knowing

 

I (Sitting down for the 1st time in a couple of months writing, as I've been ill as of late. But knowing that this is my warmup for getting back into the habit.)

            It is best not to know is the thought that if you knew what it would take to get to this particular time, some people might say NO THANKS!!! I can think of three examples (off the top of my head) that I did not know and one that did. I am one of them.

            Jacob had more than a couple of these, but I will talk about 1 of them. Jacob went to work for Laban with the thought that he would marry Rachel in seven years. Laban pulled a 52 fake out on him when he discovered that he married Leah. That is not the person he desired. that person was Rachel. However, you can have the girl of your dreams for an additional seven years. However, this was not the plan seeing that Jacob would have Twelve sons. They were Ruben, Simeon, Levi, Judah (from Leah), Dan Naphtali (via Bilah handmaid of Leah), Gad, Asher Via Zilpah, another handmaid of Leah, as Leah was barren for a time, and it was the custom to have the handmaiden bear children in the wife's stead during that period. Issachar via Leah Zebulun Dinah, the only girl, and joseph Rachel's first and only child before she died during Labor. Those children were blessed based on the promise from God given to Abraham. The question I thought of when reading this was, "I guess it is a good thing that Jacob did not know the plan ahead of time as it did not look like a good start; however it worked out well for all of us eventually.

            Joseph was sold into slavery by his brothers. They were a bit envious and planned his demise and the subsequent coverup. Joseph found himself in Egypt as a slave. However, he found favor with his employer Potiphar. He got a MeToo charge levied upon him by the wife of Potiphar, which landed him in prison because  Joseph refused to betray his boss and join her in a dishonorable manner. He would not lie with her as she desired. (you know ill tell him you did even if you didn't) Joseph was seventeen when he went to Egypt and thirty when he came out on top. After being appointed as the second most powerful person in Egypt, he was unrecognizable to his brothers when they came during the seven lean years that he saw in his dream. Still, Joseph knew them and asked for the youngest Benjamin to be brought to him to test how the brothers felt about him secretly placing a cup in a grain bag and then having his men catch them and bring Benjamin to him. Benjamin was not part of the circumstances that brought Joseph to Egypt Joseph was testing him an exciting turn of events happened after Joseph would not release Benjamin. Judah offered himself in exchange for Benjamin. It is interesting to follow the lineage from that point forward. Judah's line goes though Jesus and the apostle Paul through Benjamin. In this case, it would be very beneficial for joseph not to know the ending ahead of time

              I wrote a short essay about going back in time to meet myself at the Silas International Hotel in Manila in 1982. Seeing that version of me of that time had met my uncle (that looked amazingly like I do now), it was easy pulling the wool over my own eyes. I said the last thing to myself as I can give you some advice. You don't need the things you think you need. You don't have to get the approval of others to be recognized, and that girl upstairs is not suitable for you. Trust me. Upon my return to the present, I could not find my car. There was a page for me, and an envelope was left for me with a set of car keys, a CD, and instructions. The note's first thing was to look at your Retired ID card. It was Emmanuel O Crawford, SGMST retired.

I went to the parking lot to the noted area and hit the keylock—a new four-door Ford F150 with all the bells and whistles. The note on the dash said to tell the car to go home and go where it says. I was surprised because I did not retire as a Senior Master Sergeant. I lived in the same town but not in the same house. It was immense and had all the technological upgrades and improvements, and it was impressive. My two Natural daughters were there, and a wall-sized picture of Connie, my wife, passed away in 1987. My daughters greeted me, and I knew I had changed something in the past that changed my future. The thought was if you go back to change one thing, one can change everything. I then searched for my present family, trying to help them anonymously. One thing can cause a chain of events whose outcome is unknowable. Knowing how it turned out is not for us to know. The plans we make are the things that bring humor to the throne of heaven. 

There is one instance of a person that knew what would happen and did it anyway. The agony of that knowledge was represented by sweating drops of blood while the human prayed for a different outcome which is human nature as it is difficult to choose death.   However, the will of the man bent to the will of his father. The human submitted his personal human needs for the  duty that was the mission from the beginning  And we are all the better for the experience. 

Tuesday, April 26, 2022

I'll take the old saint's faith any day

 I'll take the old saint's faith any day.

 

I lost my parents, one at 18 and one when I was 23. I relied upon older, more experienced people, both in and out of the faith that had been there and done that. By the time I was 23, I had already had one relationship that exploded on me with the other person leaving for greener pastures.   I did have an older brother that stood in for my father figure; He was approximately 15 years older than I, who my father adopted as it was from my mom's previous situation.

Jimmy Lewis Crawford introduced me to living for Christ; however, it took years for me to get to that place in my life where I was receptive. He had a lady that introduced him to Baptism in Jesus' name and holiness, sister Mary Willis. The being was friends with my mom and dad. She was effectively my aunt. What stood out with my brother was that he was one of the last people to suffer from the polio epidemic of the later 50s and early 60s. I saw him suffer for the remainder of his life, but his faith never wavered, and he was very patient with me for decades. It should also be noted that it always came through for him when he prayed for something in earnest. It always came through.

 Joining the military in 1981, I would come home and stay with sister Willis. She had a particular way of encouraging good behavior on my part. At a specific time when I was on leave in the United States. She saw me getting dressed to go out with the fellas from the neighborhood, and she would say. "Manny, you know Strong drink is a mocker" (Proverbs 20:1). I would hate to see you come as far as you have to lose it being silly with your boys having fun while you are home on leave." I came back from hanging out with the guys stone-cold sober. I never dismissed her advice. Upon returning home, she said (in that old motherly voice), "You have a good time, baby?" I answered yes, mam, it was a great time with my friends from college. "I am so proud of you for having a good time without getting involved with alcohol.

After a long deployment, I got another 30 days' leave, went home, and stayed with sister Willis. I got another "suggestion" I had just received a promotion to E5, had plans for the evening, and she said. "Manny, you know the word speaks clearly about hanging with the wrong kind of women (" Proverbs 7.”) My question was, How did she know what I was planning on that evening? However, I was going on a dinner date, and after said dinner, I took the young lady home and stated, "I'm staying with my aunt, and I need to get back before she worries about me.' I miss sister Willis. I know she loved me and witnessed to me about Christ, and I knew she had a serious walk with God. Near the end of her life, my brother and I  brought the church to her,  where we prayed and sang. She passed in 1992 while I was in Okinawa.

 I married and had a daughter (now living in New Orleans), but on Jan 24, 1987, I lost her in a car accident, having flipped my new vehicle outside of Phoenix, AZ. she succumbed to her injuries after being thrown from the car. My daughter in a car seat in the back did not get a scratch. I remember repeatedly repeating my brother's phone number before I became unconscious and was surprised to see him at my bedside when I regained consciousness hours later. He took care of us while I recovered enough to travel, which delayed my reporting to my duty station as I was pretty beat up. But when I arrived at Holloman AFB, I reported to the housing office, where I met the couple that became my Spiritual parents. Robert and Marilyn Hughes. I was invited to church with them and was reintroduced to Jesus' name, Baptism. Jimmy and sister Willis witnessed me years earlier, and I told my brother when I started attending. I am still in contact with my pastor and members of that initial congregation.  

I found myself alone again after my daughter left for college (another painful story), where I attended a small church supporting a pastor Higginbotham. We remain in contact to this day, and I encouraged him when he wanted to start a YouTube Bible study series. I bounce ideas off him from time to time and send him some of my essays. I have always listened to those who have gone through life's trials and still maintain their integrity in the faith. For me, the life experience of those that have been here for an extended period on planet earth is valuable and should not be ignored.

When I see older people in the church, I know a person that has gone through some things in this life and has come out the other side. There is no substitute for experience, and that knowledge has a value that can be shared. When I think of these experienced saints, I think of Hebrews 12:1 and know if they can make it, I can too. I value their input and encouragement. 

Wednesday, March 30, 2022

The Sermon that made me think

                                                             The Sermon That Made Me Think

Matthew 18 21-29

      I had an awakening, and it hit like a Semi. I listened to this message then contemplated it for a couple of days. It's really familiar, however; the whole meaning of what it means was internalized. Then Peter came to Him and said, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Up to seven times?" 22 Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you, up to seven times, but seventy times seven. That's 490 times.

            Then the story parable began with the kingdom of God is like. When you see this in combination with the part of the Lord's prayer that says Thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. It means something that is important and should be adhered to. There was a King that wanted to settle accounts with his servants. Then the King came to this certain servant that owed him ten thousand talents. 62,017.18 is today's gold price per kilo. A talent is 35 kilograms. That would be in today's money in gold 2,170,601.3 that's two million one hundred seventy thousand six hundred one dollars and thirty cents. That's a whole lot of ca$h. His master ordered the servant and his family to be taken and sold to pay the debt. The servant fell down before him to ask for forgiveness. The master was moved and forgave him all $2,170,601.30. Having been forgiven the 2 million and change, this servant then goes to another servant that owed him money in the amount of 100 denarii (205.64) in today's money. Not only did he ask for his money, he grabbed him by the throat (in verse 28), demanding that he pay what he owed. This servant that owed the 100 denarii also asked for forgiveness and more time to earn what he owed the forgiven servant. The forgiving servant then threw the servant that owed 200 bucks and placed him into jail until he could pay.

            You don't believe that this would go without being noticed by the fellow servants that reported this action to the King, that summoned the servant that owed the 2mil and said, 'You wicked servant! I forgave you all that debt because you begged me. Should you not also have had compassion on your fellow servant, just as I had pity on you? 'And his master was angry and delivered him to the torturers until he should pay all that was due to him. Jesus then said, "So My heavenly Father also will do to you if each of you, from his heart, does not forgive his brother his trespasses."

            At that particular moment, I realized I had not forgiven many people in my life. I've asked forgiveness for things that I thought I was done with; however, I neglected the part where I was to forgive those that offended, mistreated, or hurt me. That list was long. I forgot them, but I know I did not forgive them because the mere mention of their name brought up anger and the desire for revenge. I had forgotten; however, I had not forgiven. I remembered each offense and how I felt when it happened. I have moved away from some, broken off contact with others, and with a few, I still held a grudge and was looking for an opportunity to get them back with interest. I am talking about bosses, coworkers, exes, family members, salespeople, and people just being mean.   There were more than a few misty moments when I realized my level of unforgiveness. The statement "show me your friends, and I will show you your future" has come to life in me as my local friends I have the privilege to share a pew with every week. I haven't made many friends outside of my church environment as I'm pretty busy being grandad and taking care of my espoused. It would have been unfortunate if I went through all of this to find that I would have things on the back end of this journey just because I could not let go of my need for revenge. The much that is given is my forgiveness; the much that is required is my forgiveness to others. 

Thursday, March 24, 2022

A wide-ranging conversation

                                     A wide-ranging conversation

Conversation with a grandson

        "Son, I'm heading to the supermarket. Do you want to come". This is how the shopping trip started. I looked for an opportunity to have my first (of many) conversations with my grandson as he is just becoming a teenager. The thought that we could have that conversation began when I realized my eldest grandson reacted while observing me giving instructions to the youngest. I saw the look that said, "Papi, I know you are full of it, but I understand why it was told.

            "Who would you answer to if you have no debt and made six figures as a 21-year-old?" "Who outside of your job could tell you what to do outside of your family?" He replied to the government and no one else." Do you know why? It is because the borrower is a slave to the lender. And I mean enslaved in the literal sense." Being in debt to that extent that you do something that you hate is why people do crazy things." Do you know the most significant financial mistake I have made financially over the last seven or so years? It was buying that 2013 Camaro fresh off the lot. I know that was an emotional decision from where I sit now, having come into a large windfall after a chapter of my former life ended. And I spent that extra windfall on a car instead of saving it. I purchased that car for 33K fresh off the lot; it was worth 28k the next day. Son, you do the math. I could have bought a Camaro one year earlier for 27k, but I bought that car for the privilege of having my hind-parts being the first in the car. Was the new car smell worth FIVE THOUSAND DOLLARS! No, it wasn't. I have another question, what would 529 dollars do for one's life over five years if it was saved/invested?   Have you heard of the "rule of 72"? What time would your money take to double at a particular interest rate? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53LBNbmXlGg

            Do you want to have children eventually? Yea Papi. Then one would require a female for that, and that process can be complicated. Think long and hard about that. There is a line from the movie "Heat" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMXEOtxXRiM I am not telling you not to get into a relationship; I'm telling you to do so with your eyes wide open. Because until you commit to one person, You MUST have one hand on the ejection lever. Now, son, this is my first piece of advice. In the realm of picking out a mate, Buy coffee. Anyone you would be interested in must know that they are suitable for an extended relationship and possibly have children. This meeting is not a date; this is an interview, as you are planning for the future of your legacy, your bloodline. The future of everyone that will carry your name over the centuries to come. There is a reason that women should and are picky on this issue. They cannot afford to make a mistake; because that mistake will follow them forever. Just because something is fun does not mean that it is something to do just for fun. There is a purpose for everything, and you have to walk in that purpose. And having coffee is how I discovered that Nana was the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

Let me come back to something. Several things had to fall in line to have this happen; most of them happened before I met Nana. I joined the U.S Military and did my twenty years of service; I was accepted into college, got a technical degree, and became a computer guy; I did 19 years in civil service and retired from that. Those things, combined with how I became ill on active duty and hit the magical age of 66, are why I can stay home to take care of Nana and all of you. It is why I retired to take care of her, but I was only able to do that because I lucked up.

            Oh, yea, coffee. Eight to twelve dollars are a reasonable expense just to find out if the person on the other side of the table is interesting, worth continuing to get to know, or is someone to run from. This is precisely like the trashcan fire instead of the house burning down. With a trash can fire, you are throwing the can outside; a housefire means you can potentially lose everything having it burned to the ground when you smell smoke you ACT. I was saved during coffee in my previous life (Pre nana) because this beautiful woman repeatedly involved herself in situations that required the police to be called. I had a friend that called me about 20 minutes into my coffee, providing me a way to gracefully exit, which I did.

There is an ancient adage; when you have boys, you only worry about one *ick in town, but when you have girls, you worry about every *ick in the town. You really do not have to be as selective because you at any time can walk away (now it could be expensive), but you can walk away, but she cannot. She has to get this one thing right hopefully the first time, as the consequences are long-lasting.  Son you do understand I am speaking of having children in this example. I'm not saying this process is easy I'm absolutely not saying that. what I am saying is that I am an eye witness to that very thing happening to a niece of mine and her husband, they have twin boys; the family legacy remains intact. 

            Let's talk about money again. Do you like our home? This example will make you think;  when I bought the house last year, I paid the house price PLUS 2.65% for the purchase divided over 30 years. The house's final price is the difference, which will almost double over 30 years. If I bought that house today, that rate would be closer to 4% for the same dirt. Did you know that the home we live in now is $600 cheaper a month than the house we rented when we got here? Our cost is fixed and will remain unchanged for the next 30 years. Do you think the rent will be the same for 30 years? That is how the rich get richer, and the poor get poorer. With fewer advantages and possibly lousy decision-making, the poor pay more for everything. There are several factors, but understand that is true,

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Son, have you seen the picture of the Bugatti parked next to a trailer? That is a one-million-dollar automobile. Let me propose an alternative let us buy a home; in this area where we live, we can get a lovely house for $360,000 that leaves $640,000 leftover, and let's say you splurge and get a 2022 ford F150 for $46,000 that would leave you $594000 left to do and if you gave yourself 50,000 a year you could live 11/12 years without doing anything. You would have a paid-off car and house; Instead of a vehicle that gets you from point a to point b, you have something that gets less valuable every day.

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Going to the market, we first stopped at the meat section, and I said the most inefficient use of a steak is to buy one, cook it and eat it. I know how to feed all seven of us with a 2lb steak. The expense breaks down, with beef the most expensive, followed by pork, then chicken; remember that chicken pasta dish we had the other day https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NcaVVo6Eho

 That was one colossal chicken breast seasoned and cut up that fed all of us. I have to plan ahead with you boys to ensure that everyone gets fed. Your mom and dad throw some funds my way to assist in keeping us fed, as I do a significant share of the cooking. We then went to the cereal aisle. I pointed out the instant oatmeal (that the youngest likes) the generic (store brand) was about 2 dollars for a box of packets, the dude in the three-cornered hat brand costs about 2.50, there is a good chance that these both came from the same factory.

            With the groceries loaded in the car, I asked whether you know how to get better than you are now. That would be by associating yourself with naturally better or more advanced people than you. I bowled like 3 or 4 nights a week when I was younger. My starting average was 125; 3 years later, my average was 220. All of the friends I associated with were bowlers of 225 or better, and three of them rolled a 300 game, and I saw it happen. My best game was 278 in a tournament. I got close to 300 but no cigar. You need people to push you to be better than you are, and you won't get better hanging out with people that do not force you to be your best. Do not coast push. I do not have any associations that are not productive everyone who is an association of mine is a benefit to my improvement.  There is no dead weight in my personal relationships. There is an old saying; Show me your friends and I will show you your future   

            I like to write; I will write about this conversation; however, I will not mention you by name. But I will write to help someone who may read this in the future. He asked what I am writing about now (thanks for asking, son). I am working on an idea. I heard in a sermon long ago. The sermon was about Everything in the Bible being truly stated; however, everything in the bible is not a statement of truth. I took the opportunity to talk about the prophet Elijah. How he could call fire from heaven in one moment then hide in a cave in the next, telling God that he was the only one to serve him faithfully. God sent an angel to the prophet, telling him, "that was not accurate as there were 7000 prophets that did not bow to Baal. That is an example of an accurate depiction of an untrue statement.

            Heading home, we talked about being led by one's emotions. There is an industry that makes merchandise of one's emotions. That is the media. Let's look at a statistic of how many police killed unarmed black people in 2019. He said 1000, no son, that number is 9. One is more likely to get killed in certain areas way more than that by something other than police. This is to get your emotions involved to make you think in a certain way to act in a way that can be predicted if the argument is only emotional if the person resorts to calling you something like picking your phobia. If it's "you are just one of those," Fill in the blank" people." You need to extricate yourself from that person or idea. Walk away, for it is better to live your life successfully without that emotional damage.

    I told him that this is the end result of the lessons of my mistakes so you don't have to make the same ones that I made. this is in essence what I would say to my 13 year old self if I was given the chance  That was the 1st of the mentorship sessions since the young man had just become a teenager; I got two more young men to get out on their own until my mission will be considered complete.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                          

Wednesday, March 16, 2022

Why Your Why is crucial.

                                                  Why Your Why is crucial.

              A person's why is paramount. It must be absolutely real to each individual.

Every person has difficulty seeing things in the long term. If it is not immediate, it is dismissed. The why is a good indicator of a person's resistance to pain, suffering, or hardship. For that reason, "the WHY" has to be deeply ingrained that it becomes the reason for a person's existence. Becoming a grandfather was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. It caused me to reassess everything. (More on that later).

            A sociological tenant states that the more difficult it is to become a group member, the stronger the attachment to that group. That is true, especially in the Military. There is a reason for this intensity. The elite Navy Seals are pushed to the limit and beyond through physical suffering. This suffering is not for any other purpose except to weed out the people without the required mental toughness. The harsh effects of Coldwater, burning lungs and muscles are used to make a recruit "ring the bell just for it all to be over. If a person gives up, hot coffee and blankets are offered to the recruit as they are removed from the program. These units often travel in groups of less than sixteen people (a Platoon) behind the lines in countries where there is no help readily available. It is there, but the mission has failed dramatically if the panic button is pushed.        

          Being a Christian in the first century was a dangerous position to find oneself. Hot oil, being crucified, beaten, fed to animals, or worse was commonplace. https://pentecostalpublishing.com/products/ancient-champions-of-oneness)  This book highlights the early church's perils to clarify what I am speaking of concerning the early church. That early church had a significant why, so the how was unimportant. There are places on the planet that still have that level of commitment; however, it is more difficult to achieve in our western cultures. How did the early church spread? The way that it could it was the persecution that spread it across the known world. The worse it got, the better it was for the spread of the early church.

            What then of us here in more comfortable circumstances with our more comfortable lives? That stress of persecution must be artificially induced or, more succinctly, internally motivated. It is more difficult for a person living in the United States of America to knuckle down and get the job done in moving their lives toward a significant goal or any goal at all. Discomfort has to be manufactured. In a world that gives a person everything at their fingertips, the ability to "put it off until tomorrow" makes it challenging to reach lofty goals. Put that self-inflicted pressure is necessary for any significant purpose.

Material things do not move me to the point where I can accomplish the more difficult life goals. However, eating and living indoors did motivate me to study and change careers when I retired from the Military. I was a generator technician for twenty years. I have friends who are still working in the field; the notable thing about the ones still doing the job working for companies whose projects are outside the United States. When I retired, I was offered the opportunity to apply for a position in the middle east as a generator maintenance tech. That place was the country of Oman for six figures (tax-free) with room board and transportation there and back home paid by the company. I did not take that opportunity, as I chose to finish college to become a computer administrator for another 19 years. Within the last year, I received a phone call from a couple of friends from Shemya, Alaska; they wanted to know what I was doing and catch up on things since I left. I had lunch with a very old friend about a month before I retired; he was home after finishing a contract installing a powerplant somewhere in Asia.

Money does not motivate me; however, what motivates me is to leave something behind that will last. That is to leave something behind that can be looked at as a direction finder for the trajectory of a life. That direction finder is for my grandchildren. Getting older has done things that I thought were impossible for me, but being an example to my grandchildren has made the difficult choices much more attainable. I hear a clock ticking in my head. It is ticking down to the point where time for me will end in this existence. I know it will be over soon enough, and I want to leave something behind that will last. Some parts are under my control, and factors that are not in my power tend to dismiss those things that I do not have control over as they are not crucial to me. All other tasks are subservient to that first goal. I recently hit the gym to get myself in better shape because I have to try my best to extend this fragile existence for as long as possible in as close to good condition. I need to see my youngest grandson out and on his own.

For a goal to be significant, it has to be measurable, attainable, and essential. A person has to see their importance before any progress toward that goal. Something unseen or nebulous does not reach the tipping point for human behavioral change. The unseen has to be made visible in the mind's eye. The concept of heaven or hell has to be made tangible if they are to have life-changing effects. If something does not set a person on fire, it is insufficient to complete a goal; I remember this lesson in my Social science class from college; "a personality change cannot be made without a significant emotional event. It can be a religious awakening; it could be coming of age and being out on one's own for the first time, not knowing what to do, it can be the birth of a child, or escaping imminent death in an accident or combat. It must be significant. Merely telling a person something they will need later won't cut it. I remember this statement from my school days. "I won't be needing algebra after high school, so I won't do anything over what I need to accomplish to finish. I have a story on that one. During my second duty station, my boss asked me to tell him how much fuel a particular fuel tank contained asked. I said, "I do not know, sir," good he replied, then walked back into the office. He came back with a book that contained the tank's dimensions and gave me a limited time (about a week) to get the information to him. This information was accompanied by the order to find it out for myself and not ask anyone for the info. No one in the shop was allowed to help me.

I remembered that that was a trigonometry problem. I was off to the library to find the answer. I got a book on the formula for determining the volume of cylindrical objects, and the next day I wrote down the number and presented it to my boss. He smiled and thanked me, and left. I later found out he wanted to know what kind of airman I would become. I guess I answered his question. I got promoted quickly after that when I found out there was a promotion test, but my evaluations by my superiors weighed heavily in the promotion criteria.

Why is the most crucial question in our lives? It gives us the reason for our actions. Fear belonging to a group, missing out on something important, or accomplishing a specific task before the time runs out. Friedrich Nietzsche states, "He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how." Then why is the key to unlocking the How?

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Monday, March 14, 2022

Anger

                                                                A Look at Anger

                                                  Not an exhaustive but a quick study

 

I saw a couple of ideas popped into my head (like they always do), and it was a podcast on how Jesus taught about anger. This reference is from the Sermon on the mount. Matthew 5;22 “But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in danger of hellfire. But that crashed into another scripture, Ephesians 4:26 Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath. There is a lot to unpack there. I will unpack this first before I move forward from here.

            In Matthew, Jesus taught that being angry with one’s brother offers the danger of hellfire it goes on further to state to leave your gift at the altar, reconcile with your brother and then present the gift. There is much more there to study. The question of who is our brother comes to mind. I purposely skipped over a portion of the scripture. Starting at verse 22, “But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother (without a cause)shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in risk of hellfire. So, by the above statement, is there a cause for which anger is appropriate? The statement whosoever shall say to his brother Raca is defined as calling someone empty-headed, stupid, or an idiot. The same anger that will cause one to call someone a name is the same anger called upon to commit murder. We have numerous examples of name-calling that turn into murder. I have stated that human beings do not kill other human beings. People kill unflattering names that people are called, not a person. Because to invoke that level of hatred, the person in question is required to be dehumanized before killing them. Never in the history of ever has it been reported that the father of four was killed in a shootout with police. It is far likelier that the perpetrator, shooter, or escapee was killed. A person that throws around epithets like free candy is in grave danger.

            What then of the scripture that says to be angry and sin not. This indicates that anger is not the complete issue. If we are told not to sin while angry, it logically follows that there is a cause where anger is appropriate. I hate to admit this, but I used to have a terrible temper. During my service time, I received a stern reprimand about the issue more than once. I even went to anger counseling a couple of times. I now have an anger that is much slower to develop. Proverbs 15;1 states a soft answer turns away wrath: but grievous words stir up anger. That still does not answer the question. How one can be angry and sin not. I believe anger and wrath are two different things (don’t quote me). Anger is the emotion, and wrath is the action. Actions are under our control. I could only use a few scripture references from the references that I read before starting this essay because that subject is well covered in the bible. Here are a few. Proverbs 14:29 “Whoever is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who has a hasty temper exalts folly.”

     I have a story on this scripture that happened today. My middle grandson did not complete his tasks as assigned yesterday evening (I cook, they clean the kitchen); well, it wasn’t done. This young man has the tendency to complete a task poorly in the hope that someone will do it for him. My Chili was hot, but he had already caught the bus for school. I was ready to throw the book at him. I went to a doctor’s appointment and took the time to think about what I would say. I let him know that he will complete the task assigned daily, and I will inspect his work in the evening and let him know if he finished it successfully if (at a time of my choosing) I am satisfied, then the rotation of chores will resume. However, if he is less than successful, consequences will escalate until compliance is reached. That was the benefit of 3 hours going to and from the VA clinic in Columbus. My anger had faded. The key was time. That leads to the following scripture reference. Proverbs 16:32 “Whoever is slow to anger is better than the mighty, and he who rules his spirit than he who takes a city.” Proverbs 14;17 A man of quick temper acts foolishly, and a man of evil devices is hated.

            So, it is possible to be angry and sin not (because it says so), then I further take it to mean that time is the ice that cools the heat of anger. Don’t be quick to respond to an insult. That is more problematic in this age when the currency of likes. Clicks and views are so pervasive. We are being used daily by those in power, those that seek power, and the minions in between. I have an example during the last two summers (unpleasantness), 34+ people had met their demise at the hands of peaceful protestors. Over the previous 18 months or so, 9 people have met their end at the hands of law enforcement. But looking at the coverage, one would not believe it so. Someone somewhere is playing manipulative games with the emotions of 300 million-plus people for fun and profit. Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. The mind is the battlefield. It is where the fight is either won or lost.

 

 

 

                         The mind is the darkroom where negatives are developed.